Your Voice

This a very touchy subject.  My life completely changed about 3 years ago July 2023 & I had just turned 56 years old. My husband whom has had blood pressure issues for many years. I have always reminded him that this was a very serious matter & that he needed to take his medicine. Well being a very alpha male, he did his own thing. July 2023 he had a stroke @ work & drove himself home. August 2023 he had a 2nd stroke while home & March 2024 was the 3rd stroke, which left him immobile. I had to retire in June 2024 to be his full-time caregiver. I often think about this & sometimes it makes caring for him very difficult. I am stressed out more than anyone can imagine because it's all on me. My family supports me, but  because I am how I am, I don't ask for much. I've always been the strong person that doesn't let too much bother me. But, reality had to sink in & I realized, this is your new life. I am mentally & physically drained at times & frustrated more than I would like to be. I trust God completely because at this point, he's all I can rely on. I cry myself to sleep some nights, asking God why me, but then say, why not me. Last year my daughter let me get a 4 day vacation & it was very much needed. Everything seems so unreal. The hardest thing is getting the help you need to be the best caregiver that you can be. I now see the system works for people that isn't in the worst shape as he is, but because our income is a little more, we can't get that assistance needed. All I can say is continue to hold onto God's unchanging hand & look to the hills from where your help comes & trust & believe it's got to get better because it's a promise from God. 

 

Gladys McNeal